Saturday, December 31, 2011

2011

It's the last day of the year. So I'm feeling a little nostalgic I guess.

So here's my year in review, in no particular order. And I'm sure I'll forget something.

While volunteering at the barn, I was given the opportunity to become the office manager and earn some extra, much-needed money. I love this job, the people, the horses, everything about it!

I became a member of the Orange County Mormon Choral Organization and was blessed with the opportunity to go to Salt Lake City and record "Messiah in America" with the East Valley Mormon Choral Organization. We also sang in the historic Tabernacle. What an amazing, once in a lifetime opportunity. Listening to the CD, I am moved to tears at different parts of the oratorio at different times. I love the whole thing!

Back in June, on the day we got back from SLC, we had an addition to our family. We got a kitten named Sage. She is such a cute little cuddly terror. She is a great comfort to both Earl and me. She gets into all sorts of trouble, jumping up on surfaces where she shouldn't be, but we love her anyway!

I started the hiring process for the Gilbert, AZ Police Department Dispatch. I have taken and passed the first test, took the second test and am now waiting to hear back on whether or not I get to move on in the process. I should hear back sometime next week, hopefully.

I spent Christmas this year battling food poisoning/stomach flu. Worked the day shift on Christmas Eve and then headed over to my folks after work. Started throwing up about 10pm and didn't stop until 4:30am. Stayed home from church on Sunday and just hung around home. Called off work for Monday (a first for my employment at Doctor's) and was finally feeling human by Tuesday night.

And now here I sit at work on New Year's Eve. It's been a good year. Difficult at times. Painful at others. But the hope and promise of 2012 keeps me going. I hope that you have a Happy New Year and may all your dreams come true!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Messiah In America

I'm feeling guilty this morning. I didn't get out of bed until 10.

It was glorious.



Last night Earl and I met up with my folks at the CD Release Celebration for OCMCO & EVMCO's joint effort last June, "Messiah in America." We recorded a 34 movement oratorio based on Christ's visit to the Americas as recorded in 3 Nephi in the Book of Mormon. I'm not a scriptorian by any means. But this oratorio was amazing. Such a testimony builder. But what was so powerful and wonderful was the joining of two choirs to produce such a massive sound. It was out of this world amazing. I started listening to the CD as soon as we got in the car to drive home. Listening to the sound that approximately 400 adults produced, it's no wonder I lost my voice last spring after our concert!



I wanted to share this with whoever reads my blog because I believe in the message of the music. It can be a great way to share the gospel with people. One of the best ways to invite the spirit is through music. And when we were recording movement #33, right as we got to the climax of the song, I got chills, goosebumps, and started to cry. After we stopped, I looked at the women all around me and they had felt the same thing. The line that got us all was, "They shall know their Redeemer." Talking about people who had never seen, never met, some had never heard of Christ, would know Him. Do we really know Him? Imagine being there, and seeing the Son of God. Would you know it was Him?

So that's my little blurb for today. If you want to purchase the CD, you may do so by going here.

And by linking up that website, I was again brought to tears by the song playing. Gosh I'm such an emotional sap!

This would totally make a great Christmas present, by the way. Just saying.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Not Quite Sure What to Title This One...

Wow, so my brain is a little fried right now. I'm not even sure why I'm writing a new post, other than for the sake of a new post!

I'm currently in Arizona. I'm here to take the 2nd test in the hiring process for the Gilbert, AZ police dispatch department. It's cool, I passed the first test and scored high enough to come back for the next step.

So as Earl and I were driving into town tonight, I got a call from some guy at PD saying that they are experiencing technical difficulties and that they need to reschedule my test. Really? Seriously? I'm not from around here, mister! I can't just reschedule at the drop of a hat!

So what did I do?

I rescheduled.

Same day, tomorrow, but 12 hours later. I was supposed to test at 0800, but now I'm scheduled at 2000. If the issues aren't resolved by then, the next available time slot is Friday at 1100. I can do that. It would mean getting into OC right at the peak of Friday night traffic, but what other option do I have?

So I'm excited that I get to sleep in tomorrow. Yay!

In other news, the CD that MCO (Mormon Choral Organization-OCMCO/EVMCO) recorded back in June is finally being released! It will be available on Tuesday, Dec. 13. Very exciting. You can go here to listen to clips from the CD. There were over 400 adults singing, 200 kids, and 100 piece orchestra. So amazing!

So I'm also having some weird shoulder issue that isn't really resolving itself. I woke up a week and a half ago with a sharp pain in my left shoulder and numbness and tingling down my arm with little to no strength.  The general sharp pain is gone, but if I don't take my anti-inflammatory, it really starts to ache pretty bad. So I'm on the anti-inflammatory as well as a muscle relaxer. I typically take the muscle relaxer at night to help me sleep. I haven't even taken it yet tonight and I'm already loopy! That's why I'm not altogether sure why I was writing a new post...

Good night!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Emotional Rollercoaster Anyone?

Wow! So last week Earl and I went to Arizona to visit with his brother and sister-in-law. It was great to see them again. While we were there, I took a test for the Gilbert, AZ police department dispatch. I'm putting feelers out for employment because let's face it, the California economy is going down!

So I took the test, hung out with family, and then hit the road back home. We left on Wednesday and came home on Friday. Super short trip, but I couldn't afford to take time off work.

I hear back yesterday that I passed the test! And I even scored high enough to move on to the next section!

So while this doesn't mean we are immediately moving, the chances are a little higher that we might move.

I'm bummed when I think about moving because I like the people here. I enjoy my work at BBTRC, and being next to both sides of the family is great. But if we move, the cost of living is significantly lower, gas is cheaper, and pretty much everything else is cheaper. So we would be able to pay off debts faster, and be more stable in the financial world.

I've also had some lows this last week. Almost had a full-blown panic attack at work on Tuesday. Not really sure what triggered it, but I overcame it. I've been beyond emotional, and the littlest things make me cry. No, I'm not pregnant. I'm just an emotional, sappy kind of girl.

So I'm not entirely sure where I'm standing today. The day started out rough, with a jackhammer at 0700. Then the cat got into the medicine cabinet and knocked one of my brand new earrings down the sink. Then as I was driving to my parent's house to get a funky long flexible magnet thingy (I know, very technical name!) I spilled my breakfast burrito down the front of my new fleece. And of course my back hurts, I think I have a pinched nerve because the pain is more of a burning all across the lowest part of my back/top of my hips. So I can't really do anything for that. Been trying to stretch as much as possible.

So that's my life in a nutshell at the moment. Here's hoping that my day goes better!

Friday, October 21, 2011

That Darn Cat

I'm trying not to be mad. Really I am. I don't like the feeling of regret. But last night was the first time that I doubted whether or not I wanted a cat.

We've had sage since June. Almost 5 months. She's been fun. She's been super cute. She's also been a holy terror.

As Earl and I were laying in bed, trying to fall asleep, Sage of course wanted to play. She went from the bed to the nightstand to the top of the dresser down to the tv stand. None of these actions are allowed. Unfortunately she doesn't respond to the squirt bottle. So we have no real way of training her what not to do.

So we chased her down from the tv stand and laid back down. Next thing I know, she went from behind the bed and tried getting up to the nightstand and/or dresser and well, let's just say she missed. She managed to pull down the clock, my old cell phone which acts as my alarm clock, my current cell phone, and my grandmother's lamp. The light bulb shattered, the lamp broke, and all of a sudden there was glass all right where I needed to stand. And of course my slippers were next to the front door since that is where I took them off yesterday afternoon.

Earl was such a trooper. I went and got him the dustpan and little Dirt Devil vacuum so he could clean it up.

During this time I put Sage in "time-out." Where is a place that a cat will stay for time-out?

The bathtub.

She doesn't like it in there. Not one bit. She probably woke the neighbors, or at least really annoyed them with her howling. But she was safe, and couldn't get into anything.

So why did I almost start crying last night? Was it because of the broken lamp that once belonged to my grandmother? Was it because that was the only item I have that connected me to her? Or was it pms starting to rear its ugly head? Probably a combination of elements.

The only good thing last night was that after all the excitement, I was able to chat with my younger brother last night. He's away at University of Utah right now. It's his freshman year. I love him dearly and miss his sweet cheesy smile. He's coming home in 2 weeks for the weekend. I hope that I'm able to see him for a little bit.

Well, I need to get dressed and eat some breakfast before today's events. It's Earl's birthday, and my parents' 39th wedding anniversary. Plus I am working with the horses this morning, as well as doing my normal stuff like get gas in the car and do laundry. Oh and I need to go pick up some things for the Open House we are having at the barn on Sunday. I have way too many things to do today and not enough time to do them all!

I keep telling myself that I love my life. I do, really, but there is too much to do today!

Friday, September 30, 2011

A Brief Testimony

I had the amazingly wonderful experience to share my testimony when I performed with the choir you hear in this video. I know the Book of Mormon to be true. I know it is the word of God. I believe it with all my heart. So watch the video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7-XVLs6u-c

If you are impressed and want to hear/see more, go here and buy tickets to our Christmas concert!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Who Needs Clothes Anyway?

I need to get this off my chest. I apologize if this is redundant to anyone, it's just on my mind right now.

I don't like to shop for clothes. Or shoes. This is mainly due to the fact that I am not a "normal" size. Technically, my girth is "average" per se, but my length is anything but. You know all those cute drop-waisted sweaters or dresses you see? They aren't drop-waisted on me. The hit at my waist. Or an empire waist with princess seams on a dress? (much like my wedding dress) Those seam lines hit right in the middle of my chest. No, I am NOT well-endowed, far from it actually.

The last time I bought jeans, I ordered them online because that is the only place where I can find extra long lengths. I love my jeans too, they fit great, and are super comfy.

I don't buy shirts anymore. I always have to buy a large or xl just to have extra length, and then I'm swimming in it every other way possible. Don't get me started on the whole modesty thing either. It bugs the snot out of me that in order to wear something even remotely in fashion (or even very out-dated) I have to wear an undershirt or some sort of cover-up. Why can't clothing designers make modest clothes? It's not that hard. It doesn't add that much fabric.

And shoes! Holy cow are shoes a nightmare! I can't buy shoes online because you never really know how they will fit. And shoes are only cute when they are a size 6-8. Heck, even 9's look better than my monstrous 11's. Not to leave out those who wear 10's, I feel your pain. I wore 10's my freshman year of high school. Half of my regular shoes are men's sizes and styles. I wear men's boots, pants, and jacket to work. So I like to feel like a woman at say, church, or on a date with my husband.

I haven't legitimately updated my wardrobe in years. I am still wearing skirts from high school. I just get really discouraged to look at clothes on the rack or online and know that the skirts that come to the model's knees would only go mid-thigh on me.

Here's where it gets a little mushy-gushy touchy-feely spiritual. After Women's Conference tonight, I know that I am not forgotten. Although it sure feels like it at times, I am remembered in Heavenly Father's eyes. Maybe when it was my turn to come to earth, I just got stretched during the transport.

I may be over 6 feet tall, but by golly, I love wearing my 4 inch heels to church!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Sleep, It's a Wonderful Thing

I can't begin to tell you how much I love sleep.

I love it. I'm obsessed with it.

It's one of my favorite hobbies.

And the last couple of nights, I've gotten some.

You see, for many years now, I have not been able to sleep throughout the entire night. Not that there were noises or other influences to wake me up. I would just wake up because that's what my body was used to from working 24-48 hour shifts on the ambulance.

But lately things have been getting out of hand. I would fall asleep like normal around 10pm. And I would be sound asleep until anywhere between 1 and 3am. I wake up for no apparent reason, and most of the time, I lay in bed, tossing and turning trying to fall back asleep. This would go on for weeks on end.

I can't tell you for sure what has changed within the last week. All I know is that I'm sleeping throughout the night. It is glorious. On days that I work, I'm not dragging my feet through the door and being a total grump the first 3 hours of my shift. And on days that I don't work, I have energy to get out of bed and actually do stuff around the house. Like laundry, or the dishes, or write about sleeping.

So it's good, this thing called sleep. I suggest you try it.


I even had the energy to get up and make pancakes for breakfast! Who knew sleep could do that?


Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Summer Activities So Far

I am forewarning you that there are a lot of pictures in this post. Finally got pictures from the camera and phone downloaded to the computer and will now be uploaded to this blog.

Starting with...Utah!! Wait, I went to Utah twice...Okay, this Utah trip was because the choir I'm in, Orange County Mormon Choral Organization, had the opportunity to perform in the historic Tabernacle on Temple Square. We also were able to record a cd at Abravanel Hall, the home of the Utah Symphony. We also had a concert at the hall, but I don't have pictures from that because my family went to the Tabernacle performance.

So here we go!





We drove up on Memorial Day and there was fresh snow on the mountains from the night before!



This is me before the Tabernacle concert. Holy hunking makeup Batman! I hated wearing that much makeup...but they made me do it.



That's me, almost to the very top, right in the middle. See me? I absolutely could not believe all the people who came to see us perform. It was amazing. Made me tear up a little.



Sage has continued to grow. She is about 5 months old now. Oh, by the way, this is our kitten, Sage! She's going to the vet for the first time today. Should be interesting!



She either stretches out or curls up to sleep. She's so stinking cute when she sleeps!



Earl is selling emergency food storage for a company called Daily Bread. This is one of the products they sell. It is a backpack (duh) with a 2 week supply of food for 1 adult (or 1 week for 2 adults, which is what we will be using it for), first aid kit, solar-powered radio-flashlight, tin cup, heat source, and filtered water bottle. They also have a la carte packs of food as well as monthly systems up to a year I believe. Almost all the food has a 25 year shelf life and tastes really good! I've tried it, it was yummy! So if you are interested in purchasing anything, I can help you out!
Earl and I went to the fair last week. We really enjoy the petting zoos. This little fawn liked me. Or at least liked trying to eat my shirt.



Earl liked the goats too.



Okay, I'm going back in time now. This was right after Earl and I did a session in the Salt Lake Temple from our first Utah trip. Such an amazing experience!
We got to sit in on the Mormon Tabernacle Choir's Thursday night rehearsal. I was feeling silly, Earl was not.




So beautiful...



This is my best friend Samantha. This is from my second trip to Utah. We got to see each other on my first trip, but we both completely forgot to take pictures! I was so happy to see her and her family. They have a beautiful home in Nibley, UT with an amazing garden! We spent the night there before we trekked on to southern Idaho for my family reunion.



Blake decided to come join us for a picture. Nicole would have too, but she was napping.



Earl and Blake became best buds on our first Utah trip and cemented that bond on our second!



That is a hummingbird in the boys hand. A few miles away from our campsite in the Sawtooth National Forest, there is a spot where hummingbirds gather and this group comes out and weighs, measures, and bands the birds. It was amazing how still the birds were! I found out that hummingbirds do not have feathers on their belly. And they only weigh about 3 grams!

I think I will end things here and post more later!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

An Addition to the Family!

We are happy to announce the addition of a family member!

No, not a baby. Well, not a HUMAN baby at least!

We have a kitten!

Her name is Sage. She is white with gray spots and a gray tail with just a little snip of white at the very end. Her eyes are green, hence the name, and is about 8 weeks old. She was rescued by my friend Sam G. a few weeks ago when her mama was killed by a coyote. Her brother, Dusty Bottoms, was also rescued and will be serving as a barn cat for Sam.

Pictures will be coming soon, I can't find the cord to upload stuff from my phone at the moment.

I will also post about my recent trip to Salt Lake City, but I just don't have the energy to do it right now!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Ramblings of the Night

I have many jumbled thoughts tonight. Please bear with me as I try to get it all out.

I will start by saying that I love my family. There have been ups and downs in our relationship. The downs were pretty low sometimes. But my family didn't leave me.

And I didn't leave them.

There were times that I wanted to. I wanted to this world. I used to think that my life was horrible and no one loved me. But then I thought of my family. Thought of how sad they would be if I left. I wanted my baby brother to know me when he got older.

So I stayed.

And the tables have turned slightly. I tend to have a "worst case scenario" mind sometimes. I think it just comes with the job. And I have worried about one of my family members leaving me. And I start to cry. So I think of something else.

A family that I know is going through this right now. Their son took his own life. While they are active members of the church, my heart aches for what they are feeling right now.

I know that families are forever. I am lucky enough to be connected to my family, my husband, and my husband's family. I know that we will be together after we die. This knowledge I think helps to ease the pain of a family member passing away. But there is still that sting right after it happens. I've seen it happen to people I love. To people I don't know. To people I will never see again.

What and how we feel makes us human. Sometimes the feelings overwhelm us and we aren't able to function. I believe that with the comforting arms of our Savior, Jesus Christ, around us, we can overcome any obstacle we come to.

When we made the decision to come to Earth, we knew we would face trials. But those trials would be worth it to have a body. Sometimes I doubt that I am strong enough to face what life throws at me. And sometimes I go crashing head-on into those trials.

It's all a matter of perspective.

Please, keep this family in your prayers. I believe they could use a lot of love and support right now.

And now I need to go to bed before I turn into a pumpkin.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Dreams and Lions

I couldn't sleep last night. So now I'm up and blogging. You guys get to reap the benefits of my lack of sleep! Aren't you so lucky?

So two nights ago I had some odd dreams. One was of a family reunion. We were in a very strange area and it was just weird. I won't go in to details because it wasn't that important.

The other dream I had was set back in Plano, in our old house. I was 9. Tyler was a baby. I was babysitting. And he had fallen asleep for a nap so I went to put him in his crib only to find the side railing was broken and I needed to fix it. So I put Tyler in the guest room on a mattress that was on the floor (to my memory, there was never just a mattress on the floor but a full size bed with a wrought iron (or was it cast iron?) head/foot board). I went about fixing the crib. And that's about all of the dream, I won't bore you with little details.

I believe that the reason I had this dream was because right before going to bed, I had texted with my mom that Tyler was going to be ordained an Elder this Sunday at church. I have a hard time coming to the realization that my little baby brother is growing up.

Well I WAS going to share some pictures of how big he's gotten, but they aren't working. So my baby brother is now about 6'4" and 215lb. This last year in football, he was a head taller than everybody else. He just passed his Eagle Board of Review, and in that picture is taller than all the leaders. Then I was going to share a picture from when he was like 12 or 13 and was a scrawny little redhead with glasses and so adorable! But you will have to take my word for it!

My baby brother is growing up. He's going to college next year. University of Utah to be exact. And then he's going on a mission. He isn't 2 and curled up on my lap like a little baby lion anymore (The Lion King came out about that age and we watched it 2-3 times a day). But I still love this kid. I'm happy to see that he is progressing in life.

And last night, who knows why I couldn't sleep. Woke up at 0230 burning up and had to turn the fan on. Tossed and turned the rest of the night. So I hope that tonight brings more sleep to me! I do love sleep. And food.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Choir and Coughs

Today is my first BIG choir performance. I'm super excited. And nervous. And scared.

I know the songs better than I give myself credit for. You see, it all has to be memorized. I'm not so great at memorizing stuff. I have to use it, or do it, over and over again. I need the muscle memory. I just have to have the faith that when it is time, it will come back to me.

What I'm scared about is the fact that my voice is at about 50% at best. I started getting a sore throat on Wednesday. Thought I was getting the flu too. Had the aches, a headache, a little nausea. There were times that I was pretty dang sure I had a fever too.

The aches have gone now. I'm still a little nauseous, but I think that's because I had top ramen for dinner at 2200 last night. It's not a good idea to do that. Don't do it. I was desperate for something hot and quick. Now I'm regretting it!

But I still have a wicked sore throat. I'm hoarse. I'm coughing. And my call time is 1045 this morning! I will be making a run to Rite Aid pretty soon to get some more cough drops and cough syrup. Wish me luck!

For the adventurous, or anybody living in the SLC area, go here for information on our concert in June. Tickets aren't available yet, but will be soon!

For now, I'm going to file my nails and maybe put a clear coat of polish on so they look nice.

And try to keep my nervous tummy settled. And attempt to eat some breakfast.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Safe!

Well I have been on one heck of an emotional roller coaster the last 2 weeks. First it was the usual girly hormones raging, then it was trading in my baby (truck) for a new car, then it was drama with the dealership, and then there's always work, and the horses, and choir, and I single-handed infected our desktop with a vicious hijacker of a virus, and I am selling my scuba gear this morning.

Did I leave anything out?

Okay, so to start it off, I traded in my truck. We traded for a 2011 Honda Civic LX. It's quite a step down from the truck size-wise, but I will admit that the fuel efficiency is very strongly winning my affection. It is white with beige cloth interior. It's an automatic with power windows, doors, mirrors, and has cruise control. All things I have never had in a car. When we were at the dealership, and it became a reality that we were not leaving with my truck, I cried. I bawled. I mean, who does that over a car? I cried on the way home. I cried laying in bed. But life goes on and we now get around 30mpg.

Choir is going well. We have just one more week before the performance. I know than I give myself credit for. And I know that all that I have learned will come back to me the night of the performances.

Back Bay is also going well. I attended a show on the 10th and it was a lot of hard work. Beautiful day out, got some sun too. The High Point Awards for the day were given to two of our students!

My knee is better. Still pains me some when going up and down the stairs, but overall an improvement from a month ago! My hip is starting to flare up again which is an annoyance but I feel it is an annoyance that I must live with.

I found a buyer the other night for my scuba gear. I wish I was able to sell it for more, but this money will put a huge dent in a credit card bill, or I can put it towards our Utah trip come June. Both are practical applications, if I was REALLY smart I would put it in savings and not touch it! But really, who does that? So the gal will be here in about a half hour and I will say goodbye to yet another chapter in my life. Not that I'm done with scuba diving. It is a life-long certification that never needs renewal. Some day I will dive again, just not right now.

I don't know what else to say. I know there is something left to say but I can't quite put a finger on it. So perhaps this is my rambling time! The last couple of weeks I've had to do some thinking. When I traded in my truck, I felt like I was losing a part of who I am. I've always been a truck girl. Always. Even before I could drive, I was in love with the Ford F150. I am still a truck girl at heart, but now I drive a little sedan. I feel like I blend in with the other 10,000 Civics on the road. I know I shouldn't let a vehicle define who I am, but I did. I felt tough in my truck. I sat higher up and could see things. Now I'm low to the ground and feel insignificant. I'm afraid that other drivers won't see me and squish me like an ant. But the good thing is that when we are blessed with children, there will be room in the back seat for them. I don't know when this will happen, but i'm planning on keeping this car for a long time.

It's amazing how time changes you. I haven't been scuba diving in years. I haven't been snowboarding either. I'm afraid that if I were try to board, I would fall and hurt myself. I think I have gotten to the point where I realize I am NOT invincible and I think I'm okay with that. I still love diving and boarding. I still love soccer too. But my body can't handle those activities any longer. I have moved on to a new stage in my life where it's not about the activities I do, but the people I'm with.

Enough philosophical ramblings for one morning. Have a great day!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Highs and Lows

I am SO bad!!

I said I was going to post something EVERY DAY. And now it's been a week since my last post!

Well, since then, life has continued on. I guess I will start with my knee, because there is news there! So just over a week ago my knee started to swell and I decided it was time to call the doc. Regular doc said it could be tendonitis or bursitis. He recommended I go to an orthopedic doctor for more. So I scheduled the appt. The day came and I was excited to get some answers. Instead I got extreme disappointment, anger, and tears.

They took x-rays, said my bone structure looked normal, ordered and MRI and said, "I'll see you in two weeks to go over the results."

Really? I spent $30 on a copay, probably $80 for the x-rays (have to wait for the bill) and an hour of my time for NO ANSWERS?????

So I scheduled the follow-up, texted my frustrations to Earl, and went to the car and called my dad, and before I could really say anything, the tears came and I was so mad and frustrated and disappointed! I can't exactly afford another $600 medical bill right now. Not really an option, you know? So the MRI is out. I'm calling the office on Monday to cancel everything and say thanks, but no thanks.

That same afternoon, Thursday, I went to Back Bay like normal. We ended up having two students cancel so I got to ride! I was super nervous because of my knee and I told myself to take it easy and not to push it. The first couple of times we trotted my knee wasn't happy. But then it started to loosen up and didn't hurt anymore! When I got home and took my boots off, my right one was more difficult to take off because it was swollen. My knee had drained!! All the fluid that had built up had drained! My body was healing!

The downside to this is that I currently have 1 cankle. The good news is that it is General Conference weekend so I don't have to wear a skirt so no one will see my cankle unless I show them!

Friday morning after lessons, I got to go for another ride! This time we went out on trail, along the back bay. It was so nice out! And all we did was walk, which was so relaxing! And then when I got home, I could see that more fluid had pooled in my ankle!

You're probably thinking, "This is gross, I can't believe this chick is talking about draining fluids and is using exclamation points after every sentence. That is so gross!" Well, I happen to think it's cool. And it means my body is healing on its own and I don't need to go back to the doctor!!

So now when I'm sitting, I put my right foot up on my left knee and rub my ankle to encourage the swelling up into my leg to be better absorbed back into my body. Bodies are interesting and wonderful things. It amazes me what it does to heal itself. So cool!

Have I grossed you out yet? Well, I'm not going to gross you out by posting a picture of my cankle. I just wish there was some discoloration in my foot/ankle. That would at least prompt the question, "What did you do?" Instead, people just think I have an abnormally large ankle.

And I don't want people to think I'm more weird than I already am!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

No TV on a Rainy Night

I have no clue what to write about today. Today was a day like any other.

I woke up, took Earl to work, stopped by my parents' house. My original intent was to pick up the old keyboard and come home and practice my music for OCMCO. But I got sidetracked. It was a beautiful morning. The air was still, the sky was blue and the temperature was just right. So Dad and I went outside and started pulling weeds by the waterfall. And we talked about this and that, nothing in particular.

Then I noticed that the canopy was leaning to one side. Of course we had to investigate! So we walked over and at first couldn't determine what was causing the lean. Then I looked up and saw a puddle of water on the top that wasn't supposed to be there. So I proceeded to grab the push broom and pushed the water over the top and caused it to spill to the ground.

The weight of the water stretched out the fabric and bowed the supports. So Dad found an old broomstick and the Handy Man's Secret Weapon, aka duct tape, and we supported the support. We discussed whether or not to brace the other two sides (one side had already been braced) and decided it could wait another day.

This is not an exciting tale. Pretty boring and lame. But it is the story of how I was able to spend a few hours of the morning with my dad. I didn't get to spend much time with him as a kid because he worked hard to keep food on the table and clothes on our bodies. I am not resentful of this fact. In fact, I am very grateful. I never went without. I have happy memories of my childhood. And then I became a teenager but that's for another day.

The point is, I love my parents. My mother is amazing and I hope one day to be the amazing woman she is. I want to always be home when my kids get out of school. I want to be there when my kid falls off his or her bike and has a skinned knee. I want to be there when my daughter has a broken heart. I also want to be practical like my father. The no nonsense kind and you do what you have to do to get things done. But to also have a sense of humor and a twinkle of mischief in my eye.

I want to have kids someday (soon, hopefully!) and I want them to know their grandparents.

Because let's face it: my parents are cooler than yours.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes

What a fun song for kids to sing! It also names three of the four body parts that I have issues with!

I went to the doctor today (actually he is the PA) for my knee. I will be going to an orthopedist for further evaluation and diagnosis. Didn't really get an answer from the PA as to what's going on, so my next step is the specialist.

In other news, Earl had his first day of temp work today. It was a slow day for him. But I am very grateful for the work anyway!

We have tons of laundry to fold and a kitchen to clean so I think I am done writing for the day!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Work, Work, More Work, and Babies?

I work with all men. I am the only female dispatcher. I don't mind. I actually get along better with guys than I do with girls.

About two years ago, there was a rash of pregnancies at work. It seemed as if you were married (some weren't), you got pregnant, or rather, your wife was pregnant. I think that at least 14 babies were born in the last 1-2 years.

I was not one of them.

Now it seems that round two has started. 2 people have announced that child #2 is on the way. Others have announced that they are trying.

I'm not one of them.

I think I need chocolate.

Lots of chocolate.

But in the meantime, Earl has found some temporary work. A lady in our ward needed a temp receptionist while her regular person was out on medical leave for two weeks.

I am grateful for this income. We will be able to use it to pay off a bill or two. And perhaps put some in savings.

I anxiously look forward to the day when we have our debts paid off. To the day when we can have a family of our own. For now, I wait. And fill my days with work, work, more work, horses, and choir.

Electricity and Libraries

Well, I did not abandon the blogosphere yesterday. We had one heck of a storm (for Newport Beach) that knocked out our power. For 6 whole hours! So I was unable to write anything.

I don't think I had much to say. Well, I can think of something. I actually have a lot of things on my mind right now.

I think what was most at the front of my mind yesterday was that people in my church can generally be grouped into one of three categories: 1. Those who fulfill and magnify their callings 2. Those who do it about half the time and 3. Those who don't care about it and only said yes because they were afraid to say no.

I say this because I am a ward librarian. Every week I dole out pencils, crayons, chalk, scriptures, pictures, and make copies. It's a pretty easy calling to have as far as callings go. I am one of four librarians for my ward. It is the general understanding that at least one of those four will show up every Sunday. And that one is me.

This has been going on for awhile now. People were released and new people called. Still they do not show up. I have expressed my concerns and feelings with my bishop. I am frustrated with this calling. No, I'm frustrated with the other people who have been called and don't show up. I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself in this respect because I keep asking "Why me? Why am I always the dependable one?" Quite frustrating. I have been told that I am very efficient in the library. I take pride in what I do.

I don't like having these negative feelings. It isn't fun and makes life unenjoyable. (random note: apparently unenjoyable is not a word because it is underlined in the red scribble, but I'm making it a word!) So I'm trying to be happy with my calling. I like the fact that when there is an issue with the copy machine (every stinking week) I know how to fix it. I like that I know where everything is and can find it quickly.

But I wish I could share this knowledge with the other people in this calling. I just can't share it if they aren't there.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Roadshow!

Need I say more?

Well, I guess I will, since I know that some people who read this aren't LDS. But how to describe it? Here goes:

A group of people, usually teenagers, get together with an overall theme. The large group is subdivided into seven or so smaller groups. The theme is subdivided as well. Each group is given a specific amount of time to write, plan, rehearse, and perform their skit.

Tonight was the performances. I was not a participant, but my younger brother Tyler was. His group's title was "Ballerinas VS the Wung Chun Clan or Love is a Battlefield." My baby brother, who is now 6'4" and about 215lbs, played a ballerina. He also had to prove his manliness by doing one arm pushups. Partly also because he has one one good hand as he broke his right hand 6 weeks ago by being "17 and stupid" as he says. The story was that of a boy and girl, who fall in love, only to find out that the boy is a dancer and the girl is a kung fu master. So a fight ensues and "Bruce Lee" the girl's brother, a tiny little kid (probably not even 5') beat up my brother (the giant ballerina) and Tyler crawled off the stage.

It was very well done, cheesy, corny, and campy, but so much fun! Plus, it is a safe environment for kids to express and experiment with stage performing, if they have never had an opportunity to do so. I love that about my church. Kids are exposed to good things, things that will help them later in life. The shyest kid could turn out to be amazing on stage! It helps to build confidence. Plus friendships can be made and it's just good, plain fun!

The roadshow that I did years ago was an adaptation of the Disney movie "Aladdin." I played Jasmine. And Aladdin was played by a tiny little 12 year old boy (I was 17 and already 6 feet tall). I don't remember much from the plot line, but the end of our performance was me picking up the boy and carrying him offstage. So fun!

Anyone else have fond memories of roadshows? What did you do? Share!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Getting Old Already!

Well today was...today was...not exciting. I can't say that I have anything to report. I worked at Back Bay today. Then Earl and I went to Costco. And then hung out with my family.

I did attempt to make homemade fried mozzarella. Turned out okay. What you do is take a chunk of fresh mozzarella (we found that the smaller the chunk, the better) and wrapped it in pizza dough. The store-bought kind in the tube is what we used. Then you deep fry it. And then cover it with marinara. I just dipped mine in spaghetti sauce. Pretty yummy!

I attempted to call my doctor today. I'm having knee issues. Along with the hip and leg and back issues. And migraine issues. Anyway, basically on Sunday night as I was coming down the stairs, my right knee started to click. Didn't hurt, so I went about my normal routine and didn't think anything of it. Then on Monday, it hurt so bad! All day at work all I could think about was putting my brace on. So Tuesday I wore my brace to work. Just going from sitting to standing or vice versa hurt like the dickens. Wore my brace Wednesday and Thursday as well. Then Thursday evening as I was getting ready for OCMCO rehearsal, I checked my knee for swelling, just like I had been doing all week (without any swelling or discoloration) and my right knee was about 50% bigger than my left! So after rehearsal, where I sat with my leg up on a chair, I iced and elevated my knee, hoping to bring down some of the swelling.

When I got up this morning, there was no change. Even after keeping my leg propped up ALL NIGHT LONG and forcing myself to sleep on my back which is the most UNCOMFORTABLE thing EVER!

So imagine my frustration when I go to call my doc today at 1230 and I get a recording that the office is closed. Not for lunch, for the rest of the day! Man, I wish I could only work half days! Must be nice! So now I have to wait til Monday to call and schedule an appt. And who knows when that will be!

So in the meantime, I'm 27 years old and falling apart. Can I trade in this model for a new one? I think the manufacturers gaurantee has worn off!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

New Year's Resolution in March?

I have been chastised and called to repentance.

Last night was the Newport Beach Stake Women's Conference. I've never been to a women's conference before. They are almost always on Saturday and I always work on Saturday. Last night's theme was "My Story Matters." And the speaker talked about how we as women need to record our life story.

I don't keep a daily journal. Not because I don't like to, it's that I don't feel that I have enough interesting events going on in my life that are worth recording.

I'm not a world traveler. I've only been out of the country once-on my honeymoon-on a cruise-doesn't really count-we only went to Mexico. I have dreams of one day going to Fiji, New Zealand, Australia, the Bahamas, Sweden, Germany, and Ireland. Half of those places are dive locations. The other half are for family history. It's where my family came from and I would love to know where, and see where they lived.

I'm not a mom. Yet. I don't have funny stories to tell about what my crazy kids did today. I don't have silly pictures to post. Not a bad thing. And rest assured-those posts will be coming in the next few years!

For now I am a dispatcher. I send ambulances to people when they call 911. (Whether they actually NEED an ambulance is another issue.) I work 3 12hr shifts a week. I leave when it's dark out. I come home as the last bits of sunshine fade away into darkness.

I am a wife. I am married to a wonderful man who loves me unconditionally. He takes care of the house because I don't have the energy or time when I come home from work. We are silly together. And nauseatingly cute when we are out in public. Who knew that after 2 years of marriage we would still hold hands every chance we get?

I'm a volunteer. I go to Back Bay Therapeutic Riding Club three days a week and give of my time to help disabled kids get stronger. Plus I get to play with horses!

I sing. I am a member of the Orange County Mormon Choral Organization. I sing 1st Alto. I am privileged to be in this organization. I love singing in a professional choir. It's hard work, but I love the sound that is made when 200 voices sing in harmony.

So this is my first entry in my thirty day journal/blog. I have to remember to write everyday. Keep me honest about it!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Making Ends Meet

Greetings! For those of you in the Orange County, CA area, or know somebody in this area, I am selling my SCUBA gear as well as my bedroom furniture set.

The furniture is solid wood, oak, to be specific. The bed is for a queen size mattress, one nightstand, and a tall dresser with wing-back mirror. The bed comes with headboard, footboard, and side rails. No need for a frame underneath, it comes with supports as well.

I also have scuba gear to sell as well. Most items are Aqua Lung brand. Libra BC (designed for women) sz M, Legend LX ACD Supreme regulator, Suunto Cobra dive computer, Aquaflex 5mm hooded vest, rolling duffel bag, I believe it is from the Destination series, and various other dive related items.

If you or anyone you know is looking to purchase, I can give you prices via e-mail. The furniture is being sold as a set, and the scuba gear I would like to sell as a set, but can sell piece by piece if needed. You can reach me at wiggnbill@yahoo.com.

Thanks!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

One of My Least Favorite Things

I'm gong to the dentist in an hour.

I'm scared. Out. Of. My. Mind.

I don't like the dentist. I've had poor experiences before. I have genetically weak teeth. It doesn't matter how much or how often I brush and floss, I always get cavities. Plus my gums are super sensitive. They always bleed. And I hate that scratching sound!! Sends chills through my whole body.

And to make it even better, I am going to a new dentist today. And to top it off, I haven't been to a dentist in over 4 years.

I'm scared.

I also need to have my wisdom teeth out. I'm not sure if my insurance covers that. I'm not sure if my insurance will cover all the work I'm sure will have to be done.

That's another reason why I'm scared. The cost. Oh buddy! Sometimes being a grownup isn't very fun. Oh well, I'm here and I can't go back!

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Catch-up

Well, I can't say that I've been sitting around the house lately. Work has been busy. My company, Doctor's Ambulance Service, was recently acquired by American Medical Response. So while right now this doesn't mean much to me, everyone else in the office has been running around lately. CHP inspections are tomorrow and we've had to prep every unit in our fleet. Not an easy feat while you are still providing coverage to 11 cities. So work has been work.

I am still volunteering with the horses and kids. SO MUCH FUN!! A lot of hard work, but so worth it. I've been able to get some riding lessons too which is a nice perk. But I realized that with the exercise I get there, my resting heart rate has gone down! Holy crap it scared me when I took my pulse yesterday! I thought for sure something was wrong with me! Nope, my resting rate now is right about 60bpm. Go me!

And the most exciting news of all...

I was accepted into OCMCO! That is the Orange County Mormon Choral Organization. There are 220 adults in the choir, a full orchestra, and several youth/children choirs. All in all, there are about 500 people involved! Holy cow! I'm super excited to be in it, and although it's a lot of hard work, it is so worth it! I love being in a choir again and singing good music with other good people. I still sing in the car and let out my inner diva (who knew I had one of those??) when I'm driving to and from work.

And going along with that, as an organization, we will be going to Salt Lake City in the beginning of June to record in a giant studio and to also perform at the Tabernacle!! So excited for that!! So anyone in the Salt Lake Valley, you should come! I will give dates later when I know more.

I think that's about all I have to say tonight. Love you all!

Public Service Announcement

So I figured it was time to make a public service announcement on my blog. I have been thinking about this for awhile now, and I'm finally feeling well enough to do it.

No, This is NOT a pregnancy announcement!

As you know, I work as a dispatcher for an ambulance company. We prove emergent and non-emergent transport to the southern half of Orange county. There are many people in this area, and I'm sure throughout the country, that do not know the difference between emergent and non-emergent. This is where I come in! Please remember to take this with a grain of salt and realize that I have a dark sense of humor-you kind of have to in this line of work.

I feel that there should be a little list or flow chart next to every phone that goes over these points.

These are examples of emergencies:
1. Extreme loss of blood
2. Loss of consciousness
3. Severing of appendage
4. Impalement of object into body
5. Chest pain
6. Sudden change in behavior (confusion, erratic, etc)
7. Sudden inability to speak, see, or loss of movement on one side of the body
8. Stopped breathing
9. No pulse
10. Seizure activity

These are instances when 911 should be called. Some are obvious, others not necessarily. Even if you are with someone experiencing some of these symptoms and you feel you can get them to the hospital faster, wait for the paramedics as they are trained to handle these situations and can administer appropriate drugs. Besides, do you really think that you can drive responsibly to the hospital while your mind is on your friend or family member's well being? Nope. I promise you can't.

Some examples of non-emergencies:
1. Feeling weak and you are over the age of 65. It's called getting older. (and if it's 100 degrees outside, don't have your heater on)
2. Feeling weak and you are under the age of 65. You're human and tired. Chances are you didn't get your cup of coffee or energy drink. Eat a cookie!
3. Toothache. The hospital can't do anything for that other than give you Advil or Tylenol. And you can do that at home.
4. Sprained ankle. Call a friend or family member to take you.
5. Wrist pain from a fall. You can still walk right? Or is that what caused your fall...hmmm...
6. Neck pain from a car accident...in a parking lot...while going 5 mph...trust me, you're fine.
7. I'm freaking out man! (I know that most people who read this are LDS, so this doesn't apply) You took one hit of pot. You are probably going to throw up. You aren't going to die. I promise.
8. Finger pain from closing the door on said finger. Really?
9. Parents of children who fell off the bed, cried initially, and are acting normal now. Kids are resilient. Plus they bounce!
10. Constipation. Ever heard of fiber? Metamucil? Fruit? Water? There are laxatives out there too...

So obviously, things must be evaluated on a case by case basis. Always err on the side of caution. But please think before you pick up that phone. Ask yourself or someone else, if it's really an emergency.

And remember, 911 is not for complaining that the drive-thru did not get your order right.

Stay classy people!