In 2 short days is my ward's Trunk or Treat activity.
Next week is Halloween.
And in 4 days I turn 30.
I think I'm having an identity issue. I was seriously starting to have some anxiety over what to dress as for Trunk or Treat. Lame?
Very.
I started thinking about who I am. What I've accomplished over the years. Who I will become over the next 30 years.
My thoughts started to overwhelm me. I feel at times that I am a square peg trying to fit in a round hole. That I'm trying to fit a mold designed by society and my peers. And I do not fit. Not one bit.
Why am I sharing this with you? Beats me.
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Small Update
Okay, so I just started working out. Like, yesterday. I know. Wow, go me, right?
Now I know that in order to lose weight (which I'm not really aiming for, more just toning what I've lost over the last 10 years of sedentary life) you have to burn more calories than you take in, correct? I've never been a big fan of counting calories-I love food way too much. So I took a little quiz yesterday and the results said I should be consuming about 2400 calories a day. Sounds like a lot, right? Well, when I have a protein shake in the morning that has 200 calories in it, then a salad at lunch with 300 calories, add in a Go-gurt, a couple things of string cheese, and an applesauce cup, all washed down with about 2 liters of water throughout the day, I'm looking alright, right? Oh and then 3 scrambled eggs with cheddar cheese and ham for dinner.
Yeah, except that I'm starving. Not literally, but I constantly feel hungry. Not fun. Do I keep at it and let my body adjust to the new regimen? Or do I stick with my normal food intake?
Just don't judge me for the 4 slices of pizza and large bowl of ice cream I had tonight. I know it was binge eating, my day was a bit stressful. Oh who cares? I'm not trying to become the next super model (HA!) or body builder. I just don't want bilateral liquefaction in my hips when I walk.
p.s. I didn't make it into EVMCO. Didn't make it past the first round of auditions. Bummer.
Now I know that in order to lose weight (which I'm not really aiming for, more just toning what I've lost over the last 10 years of sedentary life) you have to burn more calories than you take in, correct? I've never been a big fan of counting calories-I love food way too much. So I took a little quiz yesterday and the results said I should be consuming about 2400 calories a day. Sounds like a lot, right? Well, when I have a protein shake in the morning that has 200 calories in it, then a salad at lunch with 300 calories, add in a Go-gurt, a couple things of string cheese, and an applesauce cup, all washed down with about 2 liters of water throughout the day, I'm looking alright, right? Oh and then 3 scrambled eggs with cheddar cheese and ham for dinner.
Yeah, except that I'm starving. Not literally, but I constantly feel hungry. Not fun. Do I keep at it and let my body adjust to the new regimen? Or do I stick with my normal food intake?
Just don't judge me for the 4 slices of pizza and large bowl of ice cream I had tonight. I know it was binge eating, my day was a bit stressful. Oh who cares? I'm not trying to become the next super model (HA!) or body builder. I just don't want bilateral liquefaction in my hips when I walk.
p.s. I didn't make it into EVMCO. Didn't make it past the first round of auditions. Bummer.
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