Well, I did not abandon the blogosphere yesterday. We had one heck of a storm (for Newport Beach) that knocked out our power. For 6 whole hours! So I was unable to write anything.
I don't think I had much to say. Well, I can think of something. I actually have a lot of things on my mind right now.
I think what was most at the front of my mind yesterday was that people in my church can generally be grouped into one of three categories: 1. Those who fulfill and magnify their callings 2. Those who do it about half the time and 3. Those who don't care about it and only said yes because they were afraid to say no.
I say this because I am a ward librarian. Every week I dole out pencils, crayons, chalk, scriptures, pictures, and make copies. It's a pretty easy calling to have as far as callings go. I am one of four librarians for my ward. It is the general understanding that at least one of those four will show up every Sunday. And that one is me.
This has been going on for awhile now. People were released and new people called. Still they do not show up. I have expressed my concerns and feelings with my bishop. I am frustrated with this calling. No, I'm frustrated with the other people who have been called and don't show up. I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself in this respect because I keep asking "Why me? Why am I always the dependable one?" Quite frustrating. I have been told that I am very efficient in the library. I take pride in what I do.
I don't like having these negative feelings. It isn't fun and makes life unenjoyable. (random note: apparently unenjoyable is not a word because it is underlined in the red scribble, but I'm making it a word!) So I'm trying to be happy with my calling. I like the fact that when there is an issue with the copy machine (every stinking week) I know how to fix it. I like that I know where everything is and can find it quickly.
But I wish I could share this knowledge with the other people in this calling. I just can't share it if they aren't there.
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