I have been chastised and called to repentance.
Last night was the Newport Beach Stake Women's Conference. I've never been to a women's conference before. They are almost always on Saturday and I always work on Saturday. Last night's theme was "My Story Matters." And the speaker talked about how we as women need to record our life story.
I don't keep a daily journal. Not because I don't like to, it's that I don't feel that I have enough interesting events going on in my life that are worth recording.
I'm not a world traveler. I've only been out of the country once-on my honeymoon-on a cruise-doesn't really count-we only went to Mexico. I have dreams of one day going to Fiji, New Zealand, Australia, the Bahamas, Sweden, Germany, and Ireland. Half of those places are dive locations. The other half are for family history. It's where my family came from and I would love to know where, and see where they lived.
I'm not a mom. Yet. I don't have funny stories to tell about what my crazy kids did today. I don't have silly pictures to post. Not a bad thing. And rest assured-those posts will be coming in the next few years!
For now I am a dispatcher. I send ambulances to people when they call 911. (Whether they actually NEED an ambulance is another issue.) I work 3 12hr shifts a week. I leave when it's dark out. I come home as the last bits of sunshine fade away into darkness.
I am a wife. I am married to a wonderful man who loves me unconditionally. He takes care of the house because I don't have the energy or time when I come home from work. We are silly together. And nauseatingly cute when we are out in public. Who knew that after 2 years of marriage we would still hold hands every chance we get?
I'm a volunteer. I go to Back Bay Therapeutic Riding Club three days a week and give of my time to help disabled kids get stronger. Plus I get to play with horses!
I sing. I am a member of the Orange County Mormon Choral Organization. I sing 1st Alto. I am privileged to be in this organization. I love singing in a professional choir. It's hard work, but I love the sound that is made when 200 voices sing in harmony.
So this is my first entry in my thirty day journal/blog. I have to remember to write everyday. Keep me honest about it!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Making Ends Meet
Greetings! For those of you in the Orange County, CA area, or know somebody in this area, I am selling my SCUBA gear as well as my bedroom furniture set.
The furniture is solid wood, oak, to be specific. The bed is for a queen size mattress, one nightstand, and a tall dresser with wing-back mirror. The bed comes with headboard, footboard, and side rails. No need for a frame underneath, it comes with supports as well.
I also have scuba gear to sell as well. Most items are Aqua Lung brand. Libra BC (designed for women) sz M, Legend LX ACD Supreme regulator, Suunto Cobra dive computer, Aquaflex 5mm hooded vest, rolling duffel bag, I believe it is from the Destination series, and various other dive related items.
If you or anyone you know is looking to purchase, I can give you prices via e-mail. The furniture is being sold as a set, and the scuba gear I would like to sell as a set, but can sell piece by piece if needed. You can reach me at wiggnbill@yahoo.com.
Thanks!
The furniture is solid wood, oak, to be specific. The bed is for a queen size mattress, one nightstand, and a tall dresser with wing-back mirror. The bed comes with headboard, footboard, and side rails. No need for a frame underneath, it comes with supports as well.
I also have scuba gear to sell as well. Most items are Aqua Lung brand. Libra BC (designed for women) sz M, Legend LX ACD Supreme regulator, Suunto Cobra dive computer, Aquaflex 5mm hooded vest, rolling duffel bag, I believe it is from the Destination series, and various other dive related items.
If you or anyone you know is looking to purchase, I can give you prices via e-mail. The furniture is being sold as a set, and the scuba gear I would like to sell as a set, but can sell piece by piece if needed. You can reach me at wiggnbill@yahoo.com.
Thanks!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
One of My Least Favorite Things
I'm gong to the dentist in an hour.
I'm scared. Out. Of. My. Mind.
I don't like the dentist. I've had poor experiences before. I have genetically weak teeth. It doesn't matter how much or how often I brush and floss, I always get cavities. Plus my gums are super sensitive. They always bleed. And I hate that scratching sound!! Sends chills through my whole body.
And to make it even better, I am going to a new dentist today. And to top it off, I haven't been to a dentist in over 4 years.
I'm scared.
I also need to have my wisdom teeth out. I'm not sure if my insurance covers that. I'm not sure if my insurance will cover all the work I'm sure will have to be done.
That's another reason why I'm scared. The cost. Oh buddy! Sometimes being a grownup isn't very fun. Oh well, I'm here and I can't go back!
Wish me luck!
I'm scared. Out. Of. My. Mind.
I don't like the dentist. I've had poor experiences before. I have genetically weak teeth. It doesn't matter how much or how often I brush and floss, I always get cavities. Plus my gums are super sensitive. They always bleed. And I hate that scratching sound!! Sends chills through my whole body.
And to make it even better, I am going to a new dentist today. And to top it off, I haven't been to a dentist in over 4 years.
I'm scared.
I also need to have my wisdom teeth out. I'm not sure if my insurance covers that. I'm not sure if my insurance will cover all the work I'm sure will have to be done.
That's another reason why I'm scared. The cost. Oh buddy! Sometimes being a grownup isn't very fun. Oh well, I'm here and I can't go back!
Wish me luck!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Catch-up
Well, I can't say that I've been sitting around the house lately. Work has been busy. My company, Doctor's Ambulance Service, was recently acquired by American Medical Response. So while right now this doesn't mean much to me, everyone else in the office has been running around lately. CHP inspections are tomorrow and we've had to prep every unit in our fleet. Not an easy feat while you are still providing coverage to 11 cities. So work has been work.
I am still volunteering with the horses and kids. SO MUCH FUN!! A lot of hard work, but so worth it. I've been able to get some riding lessons too which is a nice perk. But I realized that with the exercise I get there, my resting heart rate has gone down! Holy crap it scared me when I took my pulse yesterday! I thought for sure something was wrong with me! Nope, my resting rate now is right about 60bpm. Go me!
And the most exciting news of all...
I was accepted into OCMCO! That is the Orange County Mormon Choral Organization. There are 220 adults in the choir, a full orchestra, and several youth/children choirs. All in all, there are about 500 people involved! Holy cow! I'm super excited to be in it, and although it's a lot of hard work, it is so worth it! I love being in a choir again and singing good music with other good people. I still sing in the car and let out my inner diva (who knew I had one of those??) when I'm driving to and from work.
And going along with that, as an organization, we will be going to Salt Lake City in the beginning of June to record in a giant studio and to also perform at the Tabernacle!! So excited for that!! So anyone in the Salt Lake Valley, you should come! I will give dates later when I know more.
I think that's about all I have to say tonight. Love you all!
I am still volunteering with the horses and kids. SO MUCH FUN!! A lot of hard work, but so worth it. I've been able to get some riding lessons too which is a nice perk. But I realized that with the exercise I get there, my resting heart rate has gone down! Holy crap it scared me when I took my pulse yesterday! I thought for sure something was wrong with me! Nope, my resting rate now is right about 60bpm. Go me!
And the most exciting news of all...
I was accepted into OCMCO! That is the Orange County Mormon Choral Organization. There are 220 adults in the choir, a full orchestra, and several youth/children choirs. All in all, there are about 500 people involved! Holy cow! I'm super excited to be in it, and although it's a lot of hard work, it is so worth it! I love being in a choir again and singing good music with other good people. I still sing in the car and let out my inner diva (who knew I had one of those??) when I'm driving to and from work.
And going along with that, as an organization, we will be going to Salt Lake City in the beginning of June to record in a giant studio and to also perform at the Tabernacle!! So excited for that!! So anyone in the Salt Lake Valley, you should come! I will give dates later when I know more.
I think that's about all I have to say tonight. Love you all!
Public Service Announcement
So I figured it was time to make a public service announcement on my blog. I have been thinking about this for awhile now, and I'm finally feeling well enough to do it.
No, This is NOT a pregnancy announcement!
As you know, I work as a dispatcher for an ambulance company. We prove emergent and non-emergent transport to the southern half of Orange county. There are many people in this area, and I'm sure throughout the country, that do not know the difference between emergent and non-emergent. This is where I come in! Please remember to take this with a grain of salt and realize that I have a dark sense of humor-you kind of have to in this line of work.
I feel that there should be a little list or flow chart next to every phone that goes over these points.
These are examples of emergencies:
1. Extreme loss of blood
2. Loss of consciousness
3. Severing of appendage
4. Impalement of object into body
5. Chest pain
6. Sudden change in behavior (confusion, erratic, etc)
7. Sudden inability to speak, see, or loss of movement on one side of the body
8. Stopped breathing
9. No pulse
10. Seizure activity
These are instances when 911 should be called. Some are obvious, others not necessarily. Even if you are with someone experiencing some of these symptoms and you feel you can get them to the hospital faster, wait for the paramedics as they are trained to handle these situations and can administer appropriate drugs. Besides, do you really think that you can drive responsibly to the hospital while your mind is on your friend or family member's well being? Nope. I promise you can't.
Some examples of non-emergencies:
1. Feeling weak and you are over the age of 65. It's called getting older. (and if it's 100 degrees outside, don't have your heater on)
2. Feeling weak and you are under the age of 65. You're human and tired. Chances are you didn't get your cup of coffee or energy drink. Eat a cookie!
3. Toothache. The hospital can't do anything for that other than give you Advil or Tylenol. And you can do that at home.
4. Sprained ankle. Call a friend or family member to take you.
5. Wrist pain from a fall. You can still walk right? Or is that what caused your fall...hmmm...
6. Neck pain from a car accident...in a parking lot...while going 5 mph...trust me, you're fine.
7. I'm freaking out man! (I know that most people who read this are LDS, so this doesn't apply) You took one hit of pot. You are probably going to throw up. You aren't going to die. I promise.
8. Finger pain from closing the door on said finger. Really?
9. Parents of children who fell off the bed, cried initially, and are acting normal now. Kids are resilient. Plus they bounce!
10. Constipation. Ever heard of fiber? Metamucil? Fruit? Water? There are laxatives out there too...
So obviously, things must be evaluated on a case by case basis. Always err on the side of caution. But please think before you pick up that phone. Ask yourself or someone else, if it's really an emergency.
And remember, 911 is not for complaining that the drive-thru did not get your order right.
Stay classy people!
No, This is NOT a pregnancy announcement!
As you know, I work as a dispatcher for an ambulance company. We prove emergent and non-emergent transport to the southern half of Orange county. There are many people in this area, and I'm sure throughout the country, that do not know the difference between emergent and non-emergent. This is where I come in! Please remember to take this with a grain of salt and realize that I have a dark sense of humor-you kind of have to in this line of work.
I feel that there should be a little list or flow chart next to every phone that goes over these points.
These are examples of emergencies:
1. Extreme loss of blood
2. Loss of consciousness
3. Severing of appendage
4. Impalement of object into body
5. Chest pain
6. Sudden change in behavior (confusion, erratic, etc)
7. Sudden inability to speak, see, or loss of movement on one side of the body
8. Stopped breathing
9. No pulse
10. Seizure activity
These are instances when 911 should be called. Some are obvious, others not necessarily. Even if you are with someone experiencing some of these symptoms and you feel you can get them to the hospital faster, wait for the paramedics as they are trained to handle these situations and can administer appropriate drugs. Besides, do you really think that you can drive responsibly to the hospital while your mind is on your friend or family member's well being? Nope. I promise you can't.
Some examples of non-emergencies:
1. Feeling weak and you are over the age of 65. It's called getting older. (and if it's 100 degrees outside, don't have your heater on)
2. Feeling weak and you are under the age of 65. You're human and tired. Chances are you didn't get your cup of coffee or energy drink. Eat a cookie!
3. Toothache. The hospital can't do anything for that other than give you Advil or Tylenol. And you can do that at home.
4. Sprained ankle. Call a friend or family member to take you.
5. Wrist pain from a fall. You can still walk right? Or is that what caused your fall...hmmm...
6. Neck pain from a car accident...in a parking lot...while going 5 mph...trust me, you're fine.
7. I'm freaking out man! (I know that most people who read this are LDS, so this doesn't apply) You took one hit of pot. You are probably going to throw up. You aren't going to die. I promise.
8. Finger pain from closing the door on said finger. Really?
9. Parents of children who fell off the bed, cried initially, and are acting normal now. Kids are resilient. Plus they bounce!
10. Constipation. Ever heard of fiber? Metamucil? Fruit? Water? There are laxatives out there too...
So obviously, things must be evaluated on a case by case basis. Always err on the side of caution. But please think before you pick up that phone. Ask yourself or someone else, if it's really an emergency.
And remember, 911 is not for complaining that the drive-thru did not get your order right.
Stay classy people!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Oh Those Toes!
Some of you may or may not know that I now volunteer every Wednesday and Thursday afternoon. I go to the Back Bay Therapeutic Riding Club. It's a place that works with mentally and physically handicapped kids. So much fun! The kids are hilarious and their enthusiasm is infectious.
While I have fun grooming the horses and lead the horses during the lessons, it is so rewarding to me to think that I have a small hand in helping these kids get stronger.
So this past week, I was grooming like normal. The mare (female horse) I was working on was quite tempermental, which I'd like to say was a rare occurrence, but it's not. She only let me clean two of her feet. And as I was trying to go for another one, she moved suddenly and decided that m foot was the best place for her to step.
I didn't cry out, well, not aloud. Internally I was screaming bloody murder. But the main gal of the operation was in the middle of a lesson, and I had just started and couldn't very well say that I'd just gotten hurt. So what did I do?
Yup. I kept going.
I don't know why I must always force myself to push on when I'm injured. It's like I have to prove that I'm tough or something.
But continue I did. I even ran with the horses in the next couple of lessons. And when I went home, the three middle toes on my right foot were swollen and red. With a popped blister on one, and broken skin on all three at the cuticle.
Today, five days later, they still hurt and are even more colorful! But I'm still going back Wouldn't give up working with those kids and the horses for anything!
And this week we are going on a "field trip" to the fire station. Should be fun!
While I have fun grooming the horses and lead the horses during the lessons, it is so rewarding to me to think that I have a small hand in helping these kids get stronger.
So this past week, I was grooming like normal. The mare (female horse) I was working on was quite tempermental, which I'd like to say was a rare occurrence, but it's not. She only let me clean two of her feet. And as I was trying to go for another one, she moved suddenly and decided that m foot was the best place for her to step.
I didn't cry out, well, not aloud. Internally I was screaming bloody murder. But the main gal of the operation was in the middle of a lesson, and I had just started and couldn't very well say that I'd just gotten hurt. So what did I do?
Yup. I kept going.
I don't know why I must always force myself to push on when I'm injured. It's like I have to prove that I'm tough or something.
But continue I did. I even ran with the horses in the next couple of lessons. And when I went home, the three middle toes on my right foot were swollen and red. With a popped blister on one, and broken skin on all three at the cuticle.
Today, five days later, they still hurt and are even more colorful! But I'm still going back Wouldn't give up working with those kids and the horses for anything!
And this week we are going on a "field trip" to the fire station. Should be fun!
Friday, November 5, 2010
Gratitude-Chicken Soup for the Soul Style
When Sarah posted up about gratitude, I started thinking about moments in my life that I'm grateful for. Two instances came to mind immediately.
I lived in Utah for 11 months. I had never lived so far away from anything comfortable and familiar before. I was lucky to have my best friend Samantha just down the road.
I didn't tell Sam my financial woes. I kept them to myself. I had run out of money and didn't have food. Just like Old Mother Hubbard, my cupboards were bare. Right around Christmas, Sam and her husband Nathan sent me a Christmas card. Inside was a gift card to WalMart. Their intention was for me to use the gift card to purchase a sofa or futon so that I would have something to sit on in my little apartment.
Sam had no way of knowing my situation. But she was certainly listening to the spirit when she sent me that card. You see, the WalMart by my place was a Super WalMart and was open 24hrs and had a grocery center in it. I was able to use that card for the next two months to buy groceries. I am forever grateful to Sam and Nathan for that gift.
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The other time that I can recall was last year. Earl and I hadn't been married 6 months yet and I got hurt at work. I was on light duty, earning half of my normal paycheck. We knew that we had to still pay our tithing even though money was scarce. And so we did. And we were about $700 short for rent and utilities. Earl went to our bishop (I had to work that night). And when the meeting was through, Earl had a check in hand for the full amount of our rent and utilities. Not a week later the brakes went out on the truck and they were grinding hard. Because the Lord had taken care of the rent, we were able to keep our truck safe. We never would have been able to afford everything without help.
Sometimes we forget that we do have people looking out for us. Sometimes we don't want to remember that there is help. But help comes when we least expect it.
I lived in Utah for 11 months. I had never lived so far away from anything comfortable and familiar before. I was lucky to have my best friend Samantha just down the road.
I didn't tell Sam my financial woes. I kept them to myself. I had run out of money and didn't have food. Just like Old Mother Hubbard, my cupboards were bare. Right around Christmas, Sam and her husband Nathan sent me a Christmas card. Inside was a gift card to WalMart. Their intention was for me to use the gift card to purchase a sofa or futon so that I would have something to sit on in my little apartment.
Sam had no way of knowing my situation. But she was certainly listening to the spirit when she sent me that card. You see, the WalMart by my place was a Super WalMart and was open 24hrs and had a grocery center in it. I was able to use that card for the next two months to buy groceries. I am forever grateful to Sam and Nathan for that gift.
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The other time that I can recall was last year. Earl and I hadn't been married 6 months yet and I got hurt at work. I was on light duty, earning half of my normal paycheck. We knew that we had to still pay our tithing even though money was scarce. And so we did. And we were about $700 short for rent and utilities. Earl went to our bishop (I had to work that night). And when the meeting was through, Earl had a check in hand for the full amount of our rent and utilities. Not a week later the brakes went out on the truck and they were grinding hard. Because the Lord had taken care of the rent, we were able to keep our truck safe. We never would have been able to afford everything without help.
Sometimes we forget that we do have people looking out for us. Sometimes we don't want to remember that there is help. But help comes when we least expect it.
A Time for Everything, Even Venting
There is a picture I have hung up in my living room. It is a picture of Christ with his arms outstretched, surrounded by a host of angels. At the bottom is a quote that says, "I never said it would be easy. I only said it would be worth it."
There are many times a day that I question that. This mortality is most certainly NOT easy. Anyone who says differently is selling something. I wonder at times if things will ever get better. Not necessarily easier. Well, yes, easier. Not because my trials go away and I float through life. No. I am just looking for a pair of strong hands and a strong back that will help me carry this burden.
I have noticed lately that I am starting to become a bitter person. I don't like that I'm bitter. I'm trying to change my attitude. I was working in the library at church a few weeks ago (my oh-so-wonderful calling) and I started reading a book. I don't remember the name of it, I only remember that it was written by President Hinckley's daughter. She spoke of opening her heart to allow Christ's love in. Not by doing anything drastic or terribly hard. Just by doing little things.
Part of my job requires that I more or less harden my heart to the situations that I deal with. This keeps me from becoming very sentimental or emotional. Sometimes this is a blessing. But after reading this book, I decided that I was going to try to not be so cold and removed. Wouldn't you know it, but the very next day at work we ran a call for a full arrest on a nine month old baby. The parents had dropped of the child with a sitter. Baby went down for a nap and 3-4 hours later when the sitter looked in on the baby, the baby wasn't breathing.
When this call came out, one of the first things I did was say a prayer for this little infant. No one ever wants to see a child hurt. I prayed for the parents that they would be comforted. And I started to cry. I cry at everything now. It's really starting to become ridiculous! How am I to open my heart if I can't by stable enough to do my job?
How do I handle this life? Earl has been out of work most of the time we've been married. I work 36 hrs a week. I know it doesn't sound like much. But those 12hr days I work drain everything from me. I come home and I am bitter. I am jealous. I want to stay home all day. I want him to work. I have prayed for him to find a job. I don't care if it's making burritos at Taco Bell. I just feel the weight on my shoulders of being the only provider for our family. And I'm not strong enough to bear it alone. I'm not sure if it sounds like I'm whining or not. Probably does. I just needed to vent. It's very frustrating to not see any change. Sometimes it feels like I am alone.
I know that I'm not alone.
But sometimes I forget.
In the meantime I am applying for part time work on my days off. Otherwise Christmas will come and go without gifts, and we will go without comforts. Not necessarily a bad thing. Wish us luck!
There are many times a day that I question that. This mortality is most certainly NOT easy. Anyone who says differently is selling something. I wonder at times if things will ever get better. Not necessarily easier. Well, yes, easier. Not because my trials go away and I float through life. No. I am just looking for a pair of strong hands and a strong back that will help me carry this burden.
I have noticed lately that I am starting to become a bitter person. I don't like that I'm bitter. I'm trying to change my attitude. I was working in the library at church a few weeks ago (my oh-so-wonderful calling) and I started reading a book. I don't remember the name of it, I only remember that it was written by President Hinckley's daughter. She spoke of opening her heart to allow Christ's love in. Not by doing anything drastic or terribly hard. Just by doing little things.
Part of my job requires that I more or less harden my heart to the situations that I deal with. This keeps me from becoming very sentimental or emotional. Sometimes this is a blessing. But after reading this book, I decided that I was going to try to not be so cold and removed. Wouldn't you know it, but the very next day at work we ran a call for a full arrest on a nine month old baby. The parents had dropped of the child with a sitter. Baby went down for a nap and 3-4 hours later when the sitter looked in on the baby, the baby wasn't breathing.
When this call came out, one of the first things I did was say a prayer for this little infant. No one ever wants to see a child hurt. I prayed for the parents that they would be comforted. And I started to cry. I cry at everything now. It's really starting to become ridiculous! How am I to open my heart if I can't by stable enough to do my job?
How do I handle this life? Earl has been out of work most of the time we've been married. I work 36 hrs a week. I know it doesn't sound like much. But those 12hr days I work drain everything from me. I come home and I am bitter. I am jealous. I want to stay home all day. I want him to work. I have prayed for him to find a job. I don't care if it's making burritos at Taco Bell. I just feel the weight on my shoulders of being the only provider for our family. And I'm not strong enough to bear it alone. I'm not sure if it sounds like I'm whining or not. Probably does. I just needed to vent. It's very frustrating to not see any change. Sometimes it feels like I am alone.
I know that I'm not alone.
But sometimes I forget.
In the meantime I am applying for part time work on my days off. Otherwise Christmas will come and go without gifts, and we will go without comforts. Not necessarily a bad thing. Wish us luck!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Catch Up!
Wow, what have I been doing lately? Apparently not blogging!
I'd like to say that a lot has happened since my last post. But lying is breaking a commandment, so I won't. Earl and I just keep on trucking. I guess we've turned into an old married couple now. We had some totally awesome rain the last couple of days. Unheard of for this time of year. But I enjoyed it anyway.
There was a "death" in the family last week. While I was at work, there was a power surge at the house and our microwave died. It was a microwave that my parents gave us when we moved out of our little apartment. Must have been over 15 years old. I'm not sure how long microwaves last, but this was an old one. So now we are pricing microwaves as well as dishwashers because our landlord has agreed to put in a new one since the one currently installed has got to be from 1970. We also broke down today and got a swiffer wetjet. very convenient since we only have wood and vinyl flooring. Should work well!
The other remotely exciting thing is that I am starting to go jogging. Hopefully one day I can actually run again! I am so out of shape it isn't funny! But my sister-in-law has graciously agreed to go with me. Hopefully my hip/leg won't act up too bad and I'll do decently. Perhaps I should have an ambulance on stand-by...
I'd like to say that a lot has happened since my last post. But lying is breaking a commandment, so I won't. Earl and I just keep on trucking. I guess we've turned into an old married couple now. We had some totally awesome rain the last couple of days. Unheard of for this time of year. But I enjoyed it anyway.
There was a "death" in the family last week. While I was at work, there was a power surge at the house and our microwave died. It was a microwave that my parents gave us when we moved out of our little apartment. Must have been over 15 years old. I'm not sure how long microwaves last, but this was an old one. So now we are pricing microwaves as well as dishwashers because our landlord has agreed to put in a new one since the one currently installed has got to be from 1970. We also broke down today and got a swiffer wetjet. very convenient since we only have wood and vinyl flooring. Should work well!
The other remotely exciting thing is that I am starting to go jogging. Hopefully one day I can actually run again! I am so out of shape it isn't funny! But my sister-in-law has graciously agreed to go with me. Hopefully my hip/leg won't act up too bad and I'll do decently. Perhaps I should have an ambulance on stand-by...
Friday, July 2, 2010
My Mountains
The Lord gives us trials. I seem to get a bunch of little ones.
Yesterday, after finishing a session at the temple, I was folding my things when I noticed something shiny on the counter. My heart jumped into my throat and my stomach fell to the floor.
~~Flashback~~
I had been at work about two months ago when a diamond fell out of my wedding band. This was shortly before Earl and I were to be sealed. Sent it in, got it back about a week before the sealing date. My ring was back for 24 hours and another diamond had fallen out. So we sent it back again at no cost to us. I got my ring back this past Tuesday.
~~Flash forward to Thursday~~
I looked down at m ring and sure enough, that tiny little shiny thing was a diamond from my band. I muttered under my breath (which is not something you normally do at the temple, for obvious reasons) something like,, "Oh my gosh, you've GOT to be kidding me!"
I was trying to hold back the tears. A kind temple worker (I haven't encountered any temple worker who isn't kind) was walking past me and stopped to ask if I was okay.
Normally when I am upset and on the verge of tears, it is best not to talk to me because I can hold back the tears and get on with my day. I couldn't yesterday. I started bawling, right there in the dressing room for a material object.
I finally collected myself, got changed, and went out to meet Earl. I had him hold out his hand and I put the tiny little diamond and my ring in his hand. I tried not to cry again as we drove home.
I couldn't call the company to tell them the situation because I would have said very mean things to them and would've wound up in tears again. So I let Earl know my demands so he could talk to them. We got things straightened out. I am getting a new band, free of cost. They are paying for shipping to and from my house. They are overnighting the completed ring back to me. But in the meantime, I will be without my beloved wedding ring for another two weeks at the least.
Earl took me to Olive Garden last night for comfort food. I was comforted a lot!
So while I am dealing with this emotional stress, I'm also dealing with some physical pain. I've been dealing with hip and leg and lower back pain for the past year and a half. It's been off and on and I would go weeks at a time without feeling any pain. Well, last Memorial Day, the pain was so intense I couldn't take it anymore. So I went to the doctor, got some prescriptions for the pain, and started physical therapy.
So far, I'm not going up and down in huge spikes and drops. I've evened out, but now it's a constant pain. My whole right leg, from my hip to my toes is constantly hurting. This makes it very difficult to sleep. I can't lay on my right side for obvious reasons. Laying on my left side is starting to put too much strain on the hip so that hurts. And laying on my back is horribly uncomfortable since I am a stomach/side sleeper. Hence, I did not get a lot of sleep last night.
I don't know why Heavenly Father has given me these trials. With the ring situation, it is probably to learn to better control my emotions. I have a quick temper and a sharp tongue. By Earl doing the talking yesterday, I pretty much avoided controlling my emotions, but I did not scream at a total stranger for something that was out of his control. I am learning to trust healthcare professionals. I guess I have always trusted them, it's the insurance beauracracies I don't trust. It's hard to go to the doctor when you know it's going to cost an arm and a leg for a procedure that may or may not bring you answers.
So that's what I'm dealing with. This may seem trivial to others, but for me, these are mountains that I must climb over. To dig a tunnel through the mountain would be cheating and I would learn nothing from it. All I know is that Heavenly Father knows me and what I can handle. I guess that means I can handle this trial. I just don't know when I will conquer it.
Yesterday, after finishing a session at the temple, I was folding my things when I noticed something shiny on the counter. My heart jumped into my throat and my stomach fell to the floor.
~~Flashback~~
I had been at work about two months ago when a diamond fell out of my wedding band. This was shortly before Earl and I were to be sealed. Sent it in, got it back about a week before the sealing date. My ring was back for 24 hours and another diamond had fallen out. So we sent it back again at no cost to us. I got my ring back this past Tuesday.
~~Flash forward to Thursday~~
I looked down at m ring and sure enough, that tiny little shiny thing was a diamond from my band. I muttered under my breath (which is not something you normally do at the temple, for obvious reasons) something like,, "Oh my gosh, you've GOT to be kidding me!"
I was trying to hold back the tears. A kind temple worker (I haven't encountered any temple worker who isn't kind) was walking past me and stopped to ask if I was okay.
Normally when I am upset and on the verge of tears, it is best not to talk to me because I can hold back the tears and get on with my day. I couldn't yesterday. I started bawling, right there in the dressing room for a material object.
I finally collected myself, got changed, and went out to meet Earl. I had him hold out his hand and I put the tiny little diamond and my ring in his hand. I tried not to cry again as we drove home.
I couldn't call the company to tell them the situation because I would have said very mean things to them and would've wound up in tears again. So I let Earl know my demands so he could talk to them. We got things straightened out. I am getting a new band, free of cost. They are paying for shipping to and from my house. They are overnighting the completed ring back to me. But in the meantime, I will be without my beloved wedding ring for another two weeks at the least.
Earl took me to Olive Garden last night for comfort food. I was comforted a lot!
So while I am dealing with this emotional stress, I'm also dealing with some physical pain. I've been dealing with hip and leg and lower back pain for the past year and a half. It's been off and on and I would go weeks at a time without feeling any pain. Well, last Memorial Day, the pain was so intense I couldn't take it anymore. So I went to the doctor, got some prescriptions for the pain, and started physical therapy.
So far, I'm not going up and down in huge spikes and drops. I've evened out, but now it's a constant pain. My whole right leg, from my hip to my toes is constantly hurting. This makes it very difficult to sleep. I can't lay on my right side for obvious reasons. Laying on my left side is starting to put too much strain on the hip so that hurts. And laying on my back is horribly uncomfortable since I am a stomach/side sleeper. Hence, I did not get a lot of sleep last night.
I don't know why Heavenly Father has given me these trials. With the ring situation, it is probably to learn to better control my emotions. I have a quick temper and a sharp tongue. By Earl doing the talking yesterday, I pretty much avoided controlling my emotions, but I did not scream at a total stranger for something that was out of his control. I am learning to trust healthcare professionals. I guess I have always trusted them, it's the insurance beauracracies I don't trust. It's hard to go to the doctor when you know it's going to cost an arm and a leg for a procedure that may or may not bring you answers.
So that's what I'm dealing with. This may seem trivial to others, but for me, these are mountains that I must climb over. To dig a tunnel through the mountain would be cheating and I would learn nothing from it. All I know is that Heavenly Father knows me and what I can handle. I guess that means I can handle this trial. I just don't know when I will conquer it.
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